Dear, I ♥ You :')

Dear,

When I knew that you're hard to live without me,
and you still love me.

Pops up on my mind to revenge, what have you done to me,

I want you to feel what I felt.. I want you to feel the pain, like how I felt it.

I want you to know how was I suffering when you made the most STUPID decision ever.

I said I love you and miss you, but in my heart I really can't forgive you. 

You are treating me like I am your Master while you are my slave.

I was like been covered by a black scarf, and it makes me can't see that you were get hurt.

I felt so happy, when I treated you like that.

And the same time,

I can see you were trying your very best to win back my heart,

Sometimes I do really touch. Why you love me? Why you treat me this good?

You are really changed, why don't you just treat me like this at the first place,

So that we don't have to get this hurt. Why??!!

Even though the wound has recovered, but the scare would remains forever.

This scare is really makes everything changed.
And crossed on my mind to dump you after you really fall in love with me..
On my mind was just to make you feel what I felt.


But last night, you told me something that woke me up.
I'm sorry Dear.. I was just realised.. Deep deep inside my heart I still love you.
Thank you for telling me what you feel..


On 9th of July, I was sick.
You brought me to clinic.
After that you brought me to your house,
You said you wanna do something.
And you bring me to your room.
Your room was so dark.
You switched on the light,
I saw balloons with 'Sorry Lao Po' on it.
3 banquets of roses. Pink, Purple and red.
was written 'I am sorry' with the flower..
My heart will go on by Celine Dion played..

It was really sweet.
You asked for forgiveness.. But I just can't forgive you.
My heart was really hurt, when I saw you begging and kneeling.
I am sorry Dear. :'(


After quite while, you really did make me believes that you will love me.
And last night make me ensure you can take care of me, and you will not hurt me anymore.
Dear, you have to give me time, I will forgive you, but slowly..
You are mine now,
I love you ♥
Dear, 
I miss your touch,
I miss your hand,
I miss your kiss,
I miss your voice,
I miss your warmth,
I miss your hug,
I miss your everything.
I MISS YOU..


From now on, you are mine, and I am yours..
Pinky promise.. =)

Fuck the Ass. Im stress.

Tons of shit things are happening to me :(

Firstly, Sick again. omg. Headache with flu. I need huggies.

Secondly, My presentation is coming 29th of July. I am really fuck up this time.

I haven't do any preparation yet. o-m-f-g. Im goin to tell about Vaio Laptop.

I have to promote it, kinda easy for me, the problem is I'm nervous to talk in front many peoples.

Thirdly, My birthday is coming.. 3rd of August. Am I going to celebrate it?

And who's the one will celebrate with me? Are they still remember my birthday. 

Fourthly, Exam is coming. The most fucking stress for me. :(

Been going out this week for 4 days continuously, Going out tonight to watch Inception,

Tomorrow, going to friend's birthday, and Sunday for movie.

Which mean, I'm going out 7 days continuously this week. 

How so not awesome is that right? Im stress. 

And still, I wish to watch Twilight Eclipse for the 2nd time.
Who wants to watch with me? hahahahaha
I love Jacob and Edward ♥

Class Activity ♥

Look Of the day,
To someone.
Focus on my neck :)



Just came back from steamboat.
It was class activity.
I love my classmates.
Was eat hard just now, have to admit.
I gain some weight. A tragedy. :(
So so sorry to my body,
I didn't take care of my body well.
I promise will eat less. Im ugly now.
Because Im fat..!

I was addicted with sweet stuff recently,
Chocolates, cakes, sweet drinks, Candy.
Everything that are sweet,
Never can escape from my mouth. :[
Help me..!

Crazy with Twilight Eclips. Awwww~ ♥

Went to watch Twilight Eclipse yesterday night, with Ah Boy and Samuel.
Finally I watched this movie. Craving for this movie for weeks. :S
Omg. I love this movie sooooooooooooooooooo much.
This is gonna be the bestiest Movie for me this year. Awwwwwwwwwwwwww~
I love Jacob and Edward.. They are too adorable. ♥
I wish to have a boyfriend, Hot and muscular  like Jacob, romantic and handsome like Edward. ;)
I hope miracles would come to me, let me found a guy that Jacob's and Edward's characteristics have.
I ♥ Jacob and Edward. 

I understand Bella's feeling, because I had the same experience before.

And it was so fuck up... == Anyways, there is tons of quotes I like in this movie,

It was just too sweet, I wish someone would tell me these. hahaha :D

And loads of quotes from this Movie I heart. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

"Do you really have any idea how important you are to me?

Any concept at all of how much I love you?" -Edward Cullen

"You'll always be my Bella,

you are just a little durable".-Edward Cullen

One more thing Edward said slowly,

"I'll be fighting for her too. You should know that.

I'm not taking any for granted, and I'll be fighting twice as hard as you will."

"You are my first priority"-Edward Cullen

The most hearted and favourite Quotes.

"Isabella Swan?"

"I promise to love you forever-- Every single day of forever..."

"WILL YOU MARRY ME???

"I'll fight for you Bella,

Untill your heart stop beating"-Jacob

Which one you prefer, 

and who'll you choose if you were Bella?

Who has not watch this movie yet, Please, go and watch it. ;)

I insist, no regrets, the one who has girlfriend, please bring your girlfriend watch this,

She sure like it, and who has boyfriend, drag your boyfriend to watch this,

this movie will be more meaningful if you watch it with the one who you wanna watch with.

I mean the one you love.♥

Random thoughts

Love becomes hate because of foolish decisions and foolish actions. When love becomes hate, only pain, separation, and loneliness remain. The whole process might have been avoided with proper love and care. Thus, what might they have done?

I HATE YOU! >:/

Never ever in my life, people called me that.. "koww"
What does it means larh..? It was really rude.
And, don't worry.. I wont find you ANYMORE!!
But I never find you also larh..
Because you are rude..! Yerrr...! 
It is ok. At least after you treated me like that,
I have no reason to think of you anymore.
Nice to meet you anyway.. 
Thanks for the few days care.
Hmph! I don't miss you anymore. Bye. []

Have I already met my GUY?

“Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'”  ♥

Randomly

Even I have nobody, I still have myself. ;)

My days. =)

No matter how, life goes on right,

Enjoyed my days, These some pictures of my weekend. =D

Friday,

My Dear Minnie, her hair was like burning,

but actually, she was doing colour treatment.

Ops, This is our colour. Nice or not.

Ignore Minnie retarded face. =_____="

Focus on our hair.

Sunday,

Still love my hair,

Except my eye bags,

'HE' said my eyes bag, getting worst,

Because I am not by his side to take care of me. LMAO larhh..

Sunday look, I have to wear this.

Urgh! =.=

These was on Monday, this week., HAHA ss in the Toilet

With Carrie.

On the way to school with my new hair,

But, was scolded by my Lovely dad.

Because he said my hair looks like Gangster, too blond.

:'( Yer, dad, why you dont like it. Nvmd larh.

Idk

it is 5.45am now.
i dont understand why,
I just feel want to cry.

My weekend ♥

I want to make this short.. Because Kinda sleepy now.
On Friday, I went to Alan Salon, Asia City with Minnie to dye our Lovely hair,
Hair is just like our soul.. I chose to have blonder colour while Minnie chose to have my previous colour.
Hmmm.. And, I love with the result so damn fucking much.
I have my blondy hair now. Awwwwwwwwww~ ;)

After that went to watch movie. Er, Dont really love this movie.
idk what its name edy.

Saturday I just stay at home. OMFG.
I was just stay at home.

Sunday, went to school,
IS Opening Ceremony,
It was tiring,
waiting the those politics arrived.

After that headed to Minnie's house,
Suddenly we 2 went crazy,
record our crazy movies,
Will upload it soon. Stay tune.
And went to watch Despicable Me.
omg! I adore Agnes. She is CUTE!
I can't stop looking at her. She was just toooooo cute.
Pictures will be uploaded soon. Urghh~
Cant stand with it anymore. Im sleepy.

I keep it very well. :)

This late few weeks, really a very sob week for me,
I had to think many stuff in different ways.
And I felt that I am growing up,
and, growing is not a good thing,
Yes this is true. Growing up sucks man!
I have to admit, I am not ready to grow..
Urghh.. But no matter how, I still have to face it.


I am blaming myself, why did I do that?
And why can't I have it?
In my mind and always..
Is he happy?
What is he doing?
Is he smoke and drink much again?
Did he have fight again?
How is he now?
Is he feeling well or not?
Did he cried again?


Idk why, sometimes,
I hope I can accidentally bump him.
Or meet him at somewhere coincidentally..
And say Hi to him. But is that possible?
No one knows it.

 
I keep it very well ♥

I Never wanted to hurt you

Hmmmm.. Loads stuff to tell. But, will update it after I came back from IS Opening Ceremony. I thought I will just stay at home on Sunday, or goi out with my Bestest Bitches. Fuhhh~ Hope after it wil goin to yam cha, because I am rotting due to superrrr bored.

This is my new hair colour, hopes it doesn't look too blond, because I might scare my schoolmates. HAHA anyway, I love my Hair colour. Idk what colour is this larh.,I just told my hair stylist. I want BLONDER. The result is, Love it. Thanks to Michelle Yap(Alan Salon). ♥

Just let it go

Lyrics | Just Let It Go lyrics

Finally you gave up =')

Seriously, I have to stop with this sad topic. 
Finally he gave up on me.. I don't know what should I feel.
Hmmmm.. But we're really not meant to be together. 
So this is the best way. I am sorry, I was raised your expectation that you'll have the chance.
But then, lastly.. I said NO! I know how was it feels.. Should be very hurt.
I have to forget about you. You too k? 
I just want you to take care a very very very good of yourself.
It is my last request from you, can you do that for me? 
I will miss you for sure. :D
Always will be remembered. one of special guy for me. 
And you made me proud of you that you said you have stopped smoking *hope it is real larh k?*
And, Stupid cow..! What somebody like you, doing in the place like this?

I Don't love you!

I DON'T LOVE YOU..! 

I AM BEGGING YOU, PLEASE GIVE UP.

PLEASE DON'T LET ME HURT YOU ANYMORE..!

YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I CARE ABOUT YOU?

AT THE SAME TIME. I'M SUFFERING TOO.

YOU WILL FOUND YOUR TRUE LOVE.

YOU ARE A GOOD GUY. I AM NOT DESERVE IT.

I am Sorry. :'(

Disappointed with you.

The one I care..
This is your Rules,


I live all my life in three rules,
LOVE my dad & mum
LOVE my friends
LOVE myself


But you didn't do the 3rd rule.. 
I am really disappointed with you.
Very Very disappointed. Haix~ :'(

I will never forget you!

To someone that I care :')

I know you quite while already, but never officially talked to each other,

On 3rd Of July. You greet me by saying "Hi" at Firefly.

Never knew, the simple short night will make us very acquaintance. 

what's somebody like you doing in a place like this?
Say did you come alone or did you bring all your friends?
Say what your name, what you're drinking
i think i know what you thinking.

This is our song, you really take a good care of me that night.

We danced and sang together.

And we often spend together after that night.

It was really happy spending time with you.

You brought happiness to me, 

Me made me laugh, and made me happy.

You lend me your shoulder when I am crying.

You know how to cheer me up.
Like to see when you acted that you're scare.

You made me warm when I felt cold.

You cut down smoke and drink,

Because I hate it.


Even though we just know each other not long,
But felt like I know you years,
Because you know what I'm thinking.
And you know when I don't feel happy.


I still remember when you you fill me up,
you brought me to Tg. Aru eat LukLuk.
Went to movie, non stop chatting.
Yerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..! Kinda Miss it..!

We're not meant to each other,

I am really sorry, I know I hurt you much.

But then, I don't want you to expect too much.

So I rather hurt you now, then you'll hurt deeper next time.


Please, live happily, even there's no me to accompany you.
Remember to smile, like how I used to force you before. SMILE :D
Kinda miss that moment. ><
Life Goes on without me.. It'll still as beautiful as before you met me.

F.R.I.E.N.D_____S.T.I.L.L  ♥